Alexz crazy crap

Enlihgtenment

2008-09-14T18:55:11Z

It's funny to me how enlightenment can make you one of the most powerful people in the world. Yet, usually everyone is to busy to notice. I usually spend so much time helping others that it doesn't balance the time that I spend on myself. So today I'm spending the day getting rid of my tan lines poolside on a sunny 96 degree day, with a drink, listening to my enlightening music and studying deeper into the depths and potentials of theta frequency theory. I think that most people refer to is as theta energy, orgone energy, ki, chi, spirituality,positive thinking, esp, or whatever people feel comfortable calling it. I've called it my Ki for many years. Either way, today it's all about me.

That's not 3 inches!

2008-05-27T14:42:09Z

This past weekend I took the dreaded 8 hour road trip to Knoxville to see Storme, Maykyr, and my new pseudo-nephew Ashwin. It was wonderful to see them all. But the trip wasn't all fun & games. I drove down with a bunch of tools so that we could jack up the house because it had termite damage and two pile-ons that sank. Although this sounds as undersirable a job as you could have with a house, add insult to injury and know that they don't have a basement. They just have an 18" crawl space in which to drag all the materials, tools and to work out of. It was brutal laying under a house as you jack up 6-8 tons of weight while you are directly under it. I think that each time I do something like this, I redefine the meaning of the word "stress". But I got a hell of an ab workout! hehehe We finally jacked up the middle 30' of the house a little more than 3" after 8 hours of sweat, dirt, and cursing. Then I spent Sunday recooperating and listening to all the noises of the house trying to settle straight. It was nice though. I called up my friend Christine, who is in the Nuclear Engineering program at the University and we all hung out with dinner over some mead. It was just enough rest and recovery for the drive home yesterday. I liked the company, but it's hard to feel motivated sometimes when you take a long weekend and return more exhausted than when you left. But I still had to go and tell Ashwin the story of "The Three Little Midgets"... hehehe

Another double-edged sword

2008-04-22T21:36:00Z

So I've been on a modified version of my old work out routine and I've dropped a good bit of weight in the last 4 months. But I have this shelf of old clothes that I way outgrew but were too attached to get rid of. They've been sitting on a shelf in my dressing room for over a year. I have a pretty critical self-image, so I'm not really proud, but I am excited to say thay I just slipped into my old shrunken Jenko's and they fit perfect, which means that entire shelf of clothes fit again. Hurray! New (old) wardrobe! Fighting with my oral fixation habit to just constantly munch on food has helped me lose weight along with the food change and extreme exercise, but has definitely made my oral fixation 10x more intense. So I'm smoking like crazy and eating mints like I'm a rockstar with some crazy addiction. And I'm playing with my tongue barbell like a talented pornstar. hehehe It's always something.

Flying off of the handle

2008-04-21T12:35:44Z

It's kind of strange how once in a while life can completely fall apart. I can usually handle situations like this with grace and efficiency but for some reason I lost it on Friday. There is something inherently wrong with that last statement. There is rarely only one reason for losing it. Usually I find that it's a culmination of things and that the last thing was as emcic put it "the straw that broke the camel's back". So I stayed home rather than go out to spread this funk. For those that didn't see me this past weekend, don't worry. I'm doing very well now. And please don't think that I was hiding away and bottling up this yuckiness. Because I wasn't. Actually, I took the time to pay attention to this and completely embrace it so that I could understand it. And the sources of influence became apparent. I had skipped my meditations, working out, and vitamins for three days. I just "got caught up with life" and forgot to take of myself. I fixed that and everything came back into balance. I have to make taking care of myself more of a priority, since I have noone doing that for me. "Big dummy! What were you thinking? Look in the mirror! There's your reminder!" (note to self) Now I'm finally off to go and pick up my paycheck that my client was giving me the run around with since last Monday. It's a good thing because there is more than just me that I'm helping now.

Got hit with the cosmic clue-by-4...

2008-04-12T16:28:28Z

So Thursday morning I was almost involved in a high speed accident between a dump truck and a moving truck that was behind me skidding with no stopping distance. Fortunately I was able to slide onto the shoulder between the car in front of me and the concreete divider, giving the moving truck just enough room to skid to a stop about a foot before slamming into the car in front of me. That was particularly close, since I had the welding tanks in the back of the van. Then later in the day I hit my head really hard on the metal track for the garage door. I just got a little bruise and one heck of a headache from it. So I came home, took some advil, a shower, and went to bed. What is interesting about all of this is that I couldn't fall asleep for about an hour, and during that time I thought of some really healthy and enlightening perspectives with some very important things that I was struggling with. Neat how things work...

Practice what you preach

2008-04-12T16:24:18Z

There is a lot of power in practicing what you preach. I have a lot of ideas that may be considered by most as "fantasy" and are dismissed just as easily. But there are undeniable truths in the magickal energies of experiences. For example, I played Rafael the other night in 8 ball. I believe he came in 3rd last year in the U.S. National Amatuer Billiard Tournament. I beat him, because I was willing to delve into a euphoric state of harmony where my body, mind, and soul were heightened. I was pouring out so much energy that I was sweating profusely. And I won. The true joy of it was not in winning, but rather in reactualizing my potential. Another example of that beautiful potential is the mead that was made a month ago at my last mead making gathering. It’s done. Yes, you read it right. It’s done! After 10 days my mead baby went still-born. I panicked. Then I read and reviewed some of the things that I’ve learned and done with live water. So I blessed, charged, and aligned some live water, along with the other things that I did, and brought my twins back to life. I poured Love into them, body, mind, and soul. With my body, I would delve into what it felt like to be in Love and then hugged my babies and projected that feeling into them. With my mind, I had created a romantic fantasy where I fell in Love so deeply, that my cup overflowed. It was so powerfully real that it was almost true. Or maybe it is and I just don’t know it yet. hmmm... I know many things are possible. anyways... Then I would sit here and tell them about how wonderful it was. With my soul, I would delve into and project hope and harmony. And they responded beautifully with extremely active airlocks. Two weeks later I filtered and racked them off. I took my gravity readings and taste tested them. They are done. Brian thinks that this is the best mead that I’ve made yet. I may agree with him. I’m bottling them on Saturday morning and will have a bottle for everyone who helped me make it. This is an undeniable testament to the power of Love. And, I think, a reflection of the power of mine. It’s also something that I do with some of my ropework. Sometimes, it’s not just Shibari. Sometimes it’s a medium that transends.

For those that are interested in starting to learn about the magickal miracles of water, I suggest that you check out this video:

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=7833758715853620146

Blessings,

Alex

"There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle." --Albert Einstein

Listening to: (Enigma) Beyond The Invisible

The End... And Now A New Beginning...

2008-02-15T18:26:59Z

The fallout from finishing this vision quest that has lasted almost 5 years has settled and I'm left feeling bittersweet about it all. All the things that I knew would happen did. There was the car accident. Yep, I got hit by a car in a hit and run while walking across the street in the crosswalk. There was the family fallout with my parents in the process of getting a divorce. There were about 20 other things that happened, not all of them bad. And there were, are, and will be many good repercussions from these events. Both B&C's were destined to have happy, healthy babies. And they will be fine. One of these children is going to grow up to do something substantial. And the rest was kind of hard to deal with. Accepting that no relationship I pursued during this period would work out. So being my own martyr left me feeling kind of bittersweet about it all, especially because I chose to distance myself from those that I truly cared about so as to protect them from all the negative chaos that ensued. But now that it's all over, I'm finally feel truly free. I almost felt empty from it all, but it really just opened up a clean slate for a new beginning.

A New Beginning...
After all this self-neglect and loneliness, I'm finally free to spend some time on myself. I've picked up the pace on my workout routine to the vicious routine I had when I was ripped. I started advancing my pool game again and won a tournament. But I'm not sure what to do about the loneliness thing. I've really been blessed to have had some great relationships in the past. Now that I'm free of so many burdens, I have the time and drive to engage myself in other areas of my life. Who knows what the future hold for me, but I'm looking with a fresh, vibrant perspective of optimism.

Noone said "No Powers"...

2008-01-30T15:32:44Z

The past week has been a real exercise in cosmic harmony. Thursday night was quite nice, but I was kind of beside myself, being that I just went through a rigorous cleansing and have finished an almost five year vision quest. Then Friday I had to make some extreme preparations. I realigned and recharged a lot of my depleted energy, after going into a heavy meditation of self-discovery. I've come to accept many new things, although I'm still kind of sad and depressed about some of them. Then at 11:13 pm I aligned some live water to promote harmony, elegance, grace, and intelligence. Saturday, I planned on doing nothing while the moon was VOC. And so Saturday evening I went out to practice for a tournament that I was in on Sunday. Psy's emerald charm and my herkimer diamond guided me well. So when I got home around 10:30 pm I consecrated them with the water and let them rest overnight. Sunday morning I woke up a little late and hurried to ground, meditate, and drink the water before hurrying to get registered at Fast Eddie's Billiards in Alexandria. It was explosive. (quite literally!) I started my first match at 10 am and around 1 pm, after winning my 3rd straight match, Psy's emerald charm burst and slid into my hand. I was impressed with how much energy it was emanating, so I put it in my right pocket (crossing energy inputs into receptive limbs works just fine). Then I continued to win the next 6 matches straight and finished around 6:10 pm.

So the tally for the day, Alex wins 9 matches in a row and was undefeated, won a silver eagle trophy, a nice black leather jacket that will have my name embroidered on it, a budweiser collectible beer stein, $500 in cash, a couple of patches, and some strange keychain/bottle opener thingy.

This kind of energy work is rigorous, intense, and divine.

Blessings,
Alex

Samhain baby in the house!

2007-11-06T12:32:21Z

I'm glad to say that my roommates, Cat and Brian, had a healthy baby girl (Kennedy) on Samhain and now everyone's home from the hospital. She was born 9 lbs 4 oz @ 21". That's huge! And last night (at only 6 days old) she was holding her bottle all by herself! That's just crazy!

I'm just starting on a work stretch that should pay very well. But it means long hours working in a secure building downtown. I may be working a 14 hour shift through Friday night changing a few hundred high security locks that were messed up. But @ $75 an hour, I won't complain much about that shift. :)Well, my 10 min of free time is up. time to go back to work. If anyone need to get a hold of me, call my cell. I won't have time to check my email or much else for now.

Hope all is well adn I'll have to catch up with everyone in two weeks when this work chaos is over.

Blessings to all...

Alex

DC Leather Pride is this weekend!

2007-05-30T14:22:43Z

DC Leather Pride is this weekend. I will be holding a short lecture and class on Rope Bondage 101 - Introduction to rope bondage. Check out the info here

http://www.geocities.com/foresides/DCLP2007.html

Hope to see some of you there!

Blessings,
RopeBoy

This just kicks A$$!!!!!

2007-05-06T03:24:12Z

I would be out watching Cassandra Syndrome playing tonight but there are surprise bday plans for me tomorrow, so I have to be rested.

But I got a most kick A$$ gift today!!!
Check out the video of it here...
http://www.metacafe.com/watch/28218/top_videos/

foresides @ 2007-05-02T09:36:00

2007-05-02T13:45:16Z

And a blessed Beltane to all... :)

foresides @ 2007-04-17T09:35:00

2007-04-17T13:54:22Z

I awoke to the new moon at 7:38am. I've been awakened by sounds, feelings, projections, and many other things but never before by an image yearning to be on my body. This is a new one. Like a new embrace. Thank you lil_phy.

Blessings to all...

tender ties

2007-04-10T01:49:05Z

I've been tenderly and ever so carefully cutting, tying, empowering, and aligning each knot in each piece of rope. Each end tied clockwise in a triple-crown empowered once for the Maiden, once for the Mother, and once for the Crone. They are empowered, blessed, and aligned. Now to be clarified by sunlight for the next three days so that they will be ready to pass out on Thursday night. I still have to write out the directions that go with the rope. Then I have to finish translating my version of the Dark Moon Ritual into a more group friendly one. If I finish the rope tonight, I can easily do the rest when I get home from work tomorrow. My vision is blurred and I'm exhausted. This much energy work can do that. At least I'll sleep soundly tonight.
I'm taking extreme care. It's nice to have the opportunity to show others how important they are to me. :)

Blessings to all,

RopeBoy

I just realized I've been tying for about 3 hours.

Alex hands out an ass whipping...

2007-03-25T12:10:17Z

This weekend is very busy. Saturday I competed in a billiard tournament (APA National Amateur Tour Stop) that started at 10 am. I wasn't really trying to compete so much as I was trying to warm up and learn the tables for today's tournament (US National Amateur Singles Prequalifier) which starts at 10 am. But when I saw that King Pin (one of the two guys who usually wins these tournaments) was there, I had a new motivation to hand out an ass whipping... So I had to throw my first match to get into the bracket that King Pin was in, being that he lost to Jackie (the other guy that wins these). Then I beat the next eight competitors. Then I played King Pin in 9 ball (which is his game and definitely not mine). I even had to ask him about a few of the rules. He ran the first rack then made a few balls and missed. Then I ran out. Then I made the 9 on the break and 4 balls. Then I broke and ran. Then I made the 9 on the break and 5 balls. Then I safed him and ran out. The race was to 55 points (each ball is 1 point, 9 is 2). When I got the score up to 53 - 14 he conceded. He said, "You win, man. Don't even shoot those in..." I think it was painfully obvious to him that I was crushing him in retaliation to our match up last time. We were cool about it. Then I lost in the next round to Jackie in a close race, but everyone in that pool hall knew who I was. I was the guy that crushed King Pin. So I won some money and no trophy for 3rd place. Finished up around 8 pm to come home and rest for today's tournament. This one is extremely important to me. I'm all hyper and anxious. Kick off is in two hours. If I do well in this tournament I'll be competing in October, for real money (up to $10k), trophies, and a spot in the nationals in Vegas.

For those who didn't know, I coached an 8 ball team to 2005 championships in Las Vegas. We won all the way up to the top 32 bracket of 364 championship teams. We got money, lots of trophies, and basically got paid to go to Vegas and compete. So yeah Droops, I can play pretty well one handed. ;)

Time to stretch and meditate before I leave. After all, noone said "no powers". :)

Blessings,

Alex

Everyone should check these out...

2007-03-02T01:18:56Z

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=7833758715853620146

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-6871958947684246583&q=joe+cell

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=933746304118058946&q=joe+cell

http://www.nutech2000.com/
(for premanufactured kits and parts)

I'm currently working on progressive healing methods. I will be detailing this as it goes. Hopefully it will benifit everyone.
Blessings...

foresides @ 2007-01-19T11:16:00

2007-01-19T16:16:09Z

For those interested in checking out your biorhythms or are just interested in being anti-Bush by helping the world in some way, like showing religious tolerance, spreading freedom through peace, ..... check out

http://www.care2.com/biorhythms/

also check out and save the info and spread the word on this

http://peswiki.com/index.php/OS:Bill_Williams%27_Joe_Cell

If you check out google videos there are a lot of cool things that people demo! Also do a search on "Proton Cell" which may have a lot of potential. If you want to insight into any of this, talk to me in person only.

Blessings...

MMMM.....Mead......

2007-01-08T04:00:18Z

I just transferred my two mead babies from their primary fermentation to their secondaries and added some yummy ingredients. The "GLAD K" mead is an almond-vanilla-raspberry blend. That one is probably going to fantstic. The "T&A Goddess" mead is a rosemary-vanilla-blackberry blend. This one is a very experimental blend, especially since the fresh rosemary is so rich. By the time I got them settled in my office the T&A was so active that it was blowing blackberry juice out through the air lock! It's only at about 7% alcohol right now, but in about 7 months that will be a very different story.

Trends are not always good...

2007-01-04T15:03:09Z

I see a very new consistant trend. If the moon is VOC and I don't have certain things in order, then I experience some tough times. The last time this happened I got hit by a car, had a ladder slide out from under me, and slid off of a roof. Then last night, I had my car alternator go out on me, battery died, and dropped my cell phone in my friends car, who gave me a ride home at 1 am. I see that this consistant trend doesn't cater to me well. Time to get things aligned properly before I head out of the house today.

At least I can do something about it, it would be much worse if I were not in a position to be able to help myself.

this is a humbling experience.

Meditations and Spiritualism

2006-12-15T12:33:40Z

here's a link to my webpage where I will be updating some of my thoughts and exercises in meditation. It's just starting to come along. I hope it helps many of you...
Blessings,
Alex

http://www.geocities.com/foresides/Spiritual_index.html

Busy weekend

2006-12-11T12:43:07Z

It was a lot of fun this weekend. I got "targeted" by the guys with vendettas in the pool tournament on Friday night and then in the big tournament on Saturday morning. I "coincidentally" got matched up against KingPin (who usually wins the tournaments) and outed and had my skill level raised to a 7 (highest skill level). I went to just have fun and play and see what other competition was out there, initially. I was up on KP 2-0 and let him get a couple of games, so that the match wouldn't end so quickly. Then I watched him run 2 games to 2-4 and I found out that he usually wins these national amateur tour tournaments. I was really torqued by that because I could have smoked him if I tried, so I did. I tried to win the next three games straight, but my own pressure lead me to sloppiness and I broke and ran, broke and ran, broke and ran but scratched while shooting the 8 ball. I beat myself 4-5 and lost. My effort was just too little too late. So I played in the 9 ball bracket and beat hell out of the next 6 opponents. I even felt bad for one of the guys that I beat 64-8 (he was a 7). I played in the tounament from 9 til almost 4, then I had to lose out because my friend Vicky was finished and ready to go. She got 3rd in the 2,3,4's bracket out of 10 players. If I kept playing I could have finished 3rd in the 5,6,7 bracket out of 32 players. but I didn't want to keep her hanging out until late, being that I was her ride. I'm going to do things very differently in the tournament in February.
(enough of my ranting over my own frustrations)

then yesterday was fun! Trena went with me to get Xmas tree but she missed the part were the fire extinguisher went off in my face while I was loading the tree! But it looks all cool and stuff. My roommate says "from the street, it looks like we're running the red light district from our house!" All in all, it was pretty good.

This weekend is going to be busy. I'm thinking of doing some racking this Friday which means that I have to get the ingredients for the Glad K Goddess Mead and the T&A Mead. I was thinking of maybe doing a mead making gathering at my house on Friday night. Anyone interested? Let me know, so that I can get you directions. And I hope that you aren't afraid of dogies. :)

Sexual acts!!!!

2006-12-03T16:41:56Z

And speaking of sexual acts that should never be attempted :Donkey Punch, Cleveland Steamer, Rusty Fishhook.... Check this out!! http://clusterstruck.com/index.php
If that doesn't bring a smirk, go ahead and go to sleep. Tomorrow may be a better day.

Can you feel the love?

2006-12-01T20:04:17Z

It must be all the Love that's making it 75 degrees outside!!! I think I'm going to go buy a tree and some more lights!!! Blessings to all...

a day of recovery....

2006-12-01T19:56:46Z

It's nice to take the day and catch up with all of the stuff that has gotten out fo control lately. Let's see, caught up on sleep, finished most of my laundry and cleaning, downloaded the digital video that I took of the plantation and it's oriental gardens, got to work on my very neglected webpage, and caught up on many people live journals. Time to take a break and maybe go get a nice steak.... mmmm.... steak.... flat-iron steaks from Omaha Steaks sounds really good right about now...

Sir Didymus meets Ambrosious

2006-11-20T12:23:23Z

So yesterday Katie and Doug came over to help me make two new mead babies. I have decided to name the two new babies "GLAD K Goddess" and "T&A Goddess". I just realized that as I finished up yesterday, that I have unfolded a new addiction. I'm already figuring out how to build the proper shelving in my office to accommodate a rack that will support at least 12 carboys, so that I don't go too long without making a new baby. Katie and Doug also brought along Gizmo, their 7 lb dog that got to meet Logan (about about 200 lbs). After Gizmo's courageous battle to defend and conquer the giant beast and take his toys from him, they became playmates and buddies. Logan even conceded to give Gizmo half of his milkbone treat. Fortunately, they took lots of pictures yesterday, so I hope to post a picture of the dynamic duo soon. I'm going to have to make a saddle for Logan to carry around Gizmo. It's just too funny of a pic opportunity to pass up! :) I was also glad to have Trena come and help me finish up the process. I also think that it's time start having a few parties again.